a thought releasing post. yes, another one.

Good afternoon.

I would like to dedicate this post to everyone and everything that has been causing this little bit of stress this week.

The second round of tests are here. Just did two common tests yesterday and today. The one this morning was a bit of a surprise, since I just got to know that it'll be on this morning at midnight last night. The lecturer only mentioned about the in-class test tomorrow, and nothing about the common test. Frustrating. Since I hardly had any sleep the night and day before, I couldn't exactly stay up and study last night. So I just roughly looked at the things we've been quizzed and revising on in class. I think I can do much better than that. Again. It's frustrating.

Does friendship has to be so complicated and twisted? No, right? So why does it feel that way?

Hmm. You know what? I think my problem is that I sort of absorb the problems people told me they are having and that sort of affects me in the end. Now where is that shield I had earlier...? Dear me, just remember to breathe, don't just listen and absorb, but think and reflect. DO NOT ABSORB.

Right. And remember to smile. Because remember that day when you weren't giving a thought to the world, and suddenly you seem to bump into so many people that you know, all of a sudden? Yeah, what a weird coincidence. I think that's to remind you that you have people around you. Whenever. Wherever. Use that as a reason to smile.=) 

I'm trying to thin out the ever so thick wall of mine but things just keep coming out, making it thicker by the day. Different thickness in every corner. I should try. But why should I try when they don't? Is there an invisible bear beside me that I don't know of? Sometimes, I just get tired of being the one who has to talk first, ok. Sometimes I'd think that maybe I'm disturbing you too much. Sometimes, I'd think you don't even care about keeping contact anymore. Sure, I do that to some of my old friends. But we've spent too much time together in school that we don't have a problem about it. But we're not old friends. Are we really friends?

I think too much.

Word of the day: frustrating.

1.

a. To prevent from accomplishing a purpose or fulfilling a desire; thwart:

b. To cause feelings of discouragement or bafflement in.

2. To make ineffectual or invalid; nullify.

I shall now get out of here and eat.

THE END.